Going Mad!

December 29th, 2011  / Author: Sharon Eden

 

Creating space for the approaching new in 2012, found this in decluttering 2009 notebooks…

There have been times when I thought I was going mad!

Times of intense stress when I’ve lost the thread of moment by moment continuity; catching myself doing irregular things like putting notepads in the fridge and bananas in the airing cupboard.

And the moments when I sat amongst colleagues in business meetings, or around the dinner table with friends, and I felt a totally separate and alien entity.  Watching out of my eyes, hearing through my ears, sensing through my skin… but not being engaged or present.  Even thinking, sometimes, ”What the hell am I doing here?”

Disconnection from my self!  Thinking I know who I am and what I like and don’t like.  Only to discover these are some-one else’s wishes for me; their desire to have me be who they want me to be… with no consultation whatsoever!  Getting involved with ancient gremlin false beliefs, false ideas and concepts… and their shtick about who and what I am.

The way back?  Rediscover my passion; my here in the moment aliveness.  To reconnect with my senses and sensations, drawing me ever closer to my outtayerbox YOU, my ‘self’, the divine spark within which inspires, motivates, enlivens and enthuses me!

The place from which I engage heartily with life.  The place from which I enjoy being alive to the moment and the scrumdinger variety of colours, shapes, sounds, smells and experiences that brings… Heart bursting, blood pounding and joy drumming ALIVENESS!

What about you?

Do you recognise the pain of mere existance?  And would you like to live a life you love? … Email or call me when you’re ready.

Live by vision… Am I crazy???

August 6th, 2011  / Author: Sharon Eden

No more Ms Miss Mrs Mr Nice Guy, being and doing everything you’ve been conditioned and disciplined to be and do!  No more put up and shut up or being sensible.  No more work/life balance baloney or glass ceiling ga-ga.

No more being seduced by your culture… familial. tribal, organisational or national… to fit ‘norms’, some of which are so skewed they are, without a shadow of a doubt, lunacy.  Is it just me or has bullying become the order of the day with certain kinds of pin-stripes???

Enough!

Is it so crazy to live by vision, a vision within which we humans, you and I,  become self-aware and reflective; living in line with our natural integrity and self-esteem?  Human beings who, rather than being reactive robots, are able to respond with grace from our hearts, minds and souls acting as one.  Human beings who altruistically collaborate with each other and our environment for the greater good… and, therefore, our own.

I spent much of my life ‘living dead’ so I know how it is to be a reactive robot.  I also know how fabulous it is to come alive; to be and do as a free woman and a continually freeing herself woman.

That’s why, for sure, I AM CRAZY!

I am undeniably 100% intoxicated by living on purpose, by living with the kind of passon and power which comes from Unlocking The Power Of YOU! Ecstatically and divinely drunk through living by vision.  Through keeping faith with my vision of MAGNIFICENCE for all human beings…

And you… ?

I’m Skin Prickingly Back!

July 3rd, 2011  / Author: Sharon Eden

November 6th blog post… I wrote, “Be back soon’.  In the great scheme of things, almost 8 months later is truly an inconsequential spit in the ocean. Well. a spit as far as transformational journeying goes.

Not unsurprising…

Like a harvested field, I’ve been burning off arrogance, omnipotence and other dark side smack side hell side personality crap!   I hear me judging myself for swearing in public…   But crap doesn’t get used as a fertiliser for no good reason.  It’s fecund with possibilities and creation.  And, it’s my experience that always, but always, when I work with my crap what’s even more challenging emerges… something of the best and most noble in me.

Whatever you do, don’t give me what’s best and noble in me!!!  Haven’t I done enough, Universe?  How the hell am I going to serve and live up to this one?

If you’re a traveller of  journeys yourself, these sentiments will not be unknown to you.  I/they burn with a passion of profound inverse humility!  How dare I think I’m not up to the job when it’s been assigned to me in the certain knowledge that I am?

I’m crying profusely now… vulnerable and red skin raw.  My offerings feel like my very blood and guts… these  things I was born to do… and I struggle without adequate vocabulary to describe them.   And I struggle with putting my head above the parapet.  Yet I’m aflame with visions.

Pictures of how you and I and the whole of humanity could live in I/thou relationship.  Images of how our everyday lives at work and at home could be fantastically transformed with qualities of love and grace.  How you and I could truly operate from not my will but thy will be done… and, paradoxically, the immense and joyful freedom that brings.

If I was passionate before… I now carry my own personal incinerator in which I become consumed and rise again.  Purpose, passion and power has nothing on this!  It’s beyond beyond.

And, through this process, I’ve been inspired to create ‘Unlocking The Power Of YOU!’ teleseminars and programme … This is where I re-begin, where I start anew offering of myself all that I understand and experience to be profoundly true.  All that burns unquenchingly in my heart and soul.

And… having put my head above the parapet… when will you?

 

 

 

Gone fishing!

November 6th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

If you hit this page and wonder why it’s been so looooooong since the last update, it’s because I’ve ‘gone fishing’.

Am in transition; re-thinking myself.  Re-thinking how I behave in the world, personally as well as professionally.  Re-thinking  right relationship with other people, and way beyond.  Rethinking who and what I am as a spiritual being as well as a human one.  Re-thinking my purpose passion power.  Re-thinking how I want to manifest them… and the complex scribbly-doo magnificence of my core creative urge inside .

Be back soon!


There’s a chameleon in the office!

August 24th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden


When chameleons come in human form, they appear to be the sincerest of sincere, the most absolutely believable and credible anyone could ever be.

The problem is, without a continuous, integrated and solid core self, they have to mirror their environment.  That’s you or whoever the ‘you’ is with whom they’re relating in the moment.

So, when with you, they’ll mirror your beliefs, your values, your attitudes… and, because of that, create fantastic rapport with you. You’d think they were your best buddy.  Ten minutes later, they’re with some-one else and… what do you know?  Now they’re mirroring that someone-one else’s beliefs, values and attitudes and, because of that,  creating fantastic rapport with them.

In the office, a chameleon is a Grade A menace!

In a group, they’ll mirror the general consensus of beliefs, values, norms and attitudes.  They’ll go whichever way the wind’s blowing so as to maintain their likeable front and serve their own particular agenda.  The problem is that, as part of  a group, once alone with an individual they’re blowing hot and cold again according to that individual’s take on things.

And, with Machiavelian tendencies, they’ll be divisive and destructive, often opposing the leader, or setting themselves up as ‘better’ than the leader, and/or stirring up trouble in subtle and underhand ways.

Call them on their behaviour and they’ll flare up defensively, question your judgement and downright lie.  Only, it’s not a lie to them.  They believe they have integrity, if that’s what you’re calling them on.  They believe they have strong moral values, if that’s what you’re calling them on.  They’ll believe they said ‘white’ in the face of undeniable evidence that they said ‘black’.  They will bombard you with rationalisations and excuses to maintain their position, whatever that happens to be at the time.

Never give a chameleon the benefit of doubt!

Because, due to this psychological personality flaw, they’re eminently untrustworthy… with themselves, as well as other people.   They can talk the talk and even look as if they’re walking the walk because they’re very good at acting out a role, convincing themselves as well as others.

So, it’s not surprising that a regional director with whom I recently worked, doubted his own judgement and sanity, when the chameleon, who had been so plausible. was exposed.  Because, if they stick around in one place for long enough or long enough periods… and, often, they don’t… they’ll get caught out through inconsistencies and incongruent behaviours.  They will always, always trip themselves up eventually.

And when they do, their usual way of resolving things is to get on their high horse, have a big falling out with who-ever’s calledl them on their behaviour and walk out/leave in high dudgeon. Which is exactly how my client’s ‘chameleon’ behaved with him.  No performance management there, then!

The only way I know of managing a chameleon is having them ‘fall in love’ with you.  So besotted do they become with you that they’ll follow your lead, i.e., clone themselves in line with you.  However, that lacks integrity and is manipulative… which mirrors the chameleon’s behaviour wonderfully.

So, your comments on chameleons, in general, and if it’s possible to manage them in an ethical way would be most welcome!


Dark Side of Servant Leadership

August 1st, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

DARK SIDE I think the American term ‘Wahooooo!’ aptly describes my recent life experiences, what with work, play, new grandchildren, working on PR and     marketing materials for my new book, developing new coaching packages and enjoying nourishing times with family and friends… so exciting!  And, I got invited by the superb Dr Jack King to write a guest post on his blog.  A real honour!

So, here it is… click on the link to discover the Dark Side of Servant Leadership and how to avoid it!  And catch up with some great added value comments there too…

‘Authentic’ leadership is a load of rubbish!

July 10th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

Pleeeeeez!… If it’s genuine why headline it?  It will speak for itself.  You don’t have to do or be certain things to be ‘authentic’.  You just are!  So, with sceptical mind, I went to a conference workshop this week  entitled ‘Developing Authentic Leadership’.

To be honest, I think I went for a fight. I think I went anticipating the same old same old ideas and formulae that I could challenge and kick at.

Ian Roberts from The Thinking Partnership started with a declaration his piece wasn’t in traditional workshop style.  People were free to make comments and ask questions (so could learn from each other anyway) but he wasn’t into a traditional workshop… Or, it transpired, a traditional anything else!

Instead, he launched into several stories which showed how fake most of which goes by the name of authenticity is in our culture.  And how it’s often seen in self leadership as finding your ‘essence’ in a narcissistic way, abandoning relationships, home, work, whatever and looking for some magical fit some mystery somewhere else.

I loved it!  He was talking stuff  in my upcoming book, albeit with a different approach and a different language.  There were a few minor points where I disagreed but, hey, at core, he and I are absolutely on the same wave length,

Some other ‘coaches’ in the large audience most certainly didn’t love it!

They expressed disappointment his ‘workshop’ wasn’t in the traditional formula.  They said they were confused… always a good sign indicating old ideas are breaking down and new ones in the process of forming.

They commented on how his manner had created a negative emotional reaction in them (so much for response-ability!).  They expressed feelings mostly of anger or frustration, some of feeling insulted by his approach.  And some verged on being personally attacking.

Never mind their palpable high levels of anxiety on having their expectations of the workshop and their beliefs about authentic leadership challenged big time!

And, if they didn’t comment, a large number of them just got up and left.

These were coaches!  These were people to whom other people entrust their precious selves for growth.  Yet they couldn’t sit with their own discomfort, dislike, diagreement, inner conflict or whatever else was going on for them.  So, how on earth are they going to be able to sit with that of their clients when at a growing edge???

Found a great quotation from Einstein.  ‘If you are out to describe the truth, leave elegance to the tailor.’

Now, I don’t believe there’s one essential truth… Ian was outlining ‘the’ truth from his perspective.  And he wasn’t elegant.  He gave it straight from the shoulder.  He responded to comments and questions, however uncomfortable, very much in the moment, present, standing in his own ground, saying it how it was for him…

He was modelling authentic leadership, what I call Inner Leadership!… Being aware of the other person’s position and feelings, being aware of his own reactions, which he later used as teaching points, and choosing neither to be defiant or compliant about the criticism but to respond honestly in the moment as best he could.

What a fabulous, fabulous opportunity for learning!

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Leadership Gossip – What’s it hiding?

June 20th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

When you have nothing to say… say nothing!

Maybe it’s me. Maybe I’m a little jaded with over a month of more than usual socialising and networking. From listening to buckets of small talk which has, at times, seemed very small to me.

Not that I need the lofty heights of academia or to debate the latest leadership theories at every opportunity but, pleeeeeez, … how can anyone in their right mind think the menu of their lavish dinner or latest challenging Atlantic flight are of any interest to me.

I’ve come to the conclusion that many people keep themself busy with gossip and lacklustre minutae as a distraction from focusing on things which really matter. What they lack in wit they make up for in volumous, stultifying garbage. And while they do…

They don’t have to face their lack of inner leadership, the personal or business relationship that’s falling apart, the difficulty they’re experiencing with their role, the lack of meaning and purpose they experience or that they’re as bored with themselves as I am with their conversation.

I wanted to yell, WAKE UP!  I was falling asleep too, being hypnotised into a coma where we could all pretend everything was alright when it wasn’t. Oh for some honesty, some transparency and authentic communication.

And, if I had yelled WAKE UP!, would I have been acting with integrity, just been downright rude or have defined myself socially as a lunatic?

Insanity here I come.

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Leadership Leather!

May 20th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

I was going to post about my unsuccessful attempts to break in some new and ‘to die for’ shoes which are just a bit too small and cramp my toes.  I was going to use that as a metaphor for leaders who are themselves just a bit too small and, however much you try to stretch them, their ‘leather’ just won’t give.

Then it struck me like lightning that maybe the topic was about something I should be asking  myself…

“Where am I cramped?  Where is my leadership leather resisting a stretch?”

Looks like I stumbled on rich questions.  They’re marinading as I type and I’ll get back to you when they’re well and truly cooked.  In the meantime…

How about you???

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Three Essential Steps To Fierce Leadership

April 18th, 2010  / Author: Sharon Eden

Fierce is a word which gets bad press.  Look it up in any dictionary and you’ll get meanings like violently aggressive or frightening, unpleasantly strong or intense.

Yet ‘fierce’ is the heart of passion and, without fierce leadership, inner or outer, you cannot do the not do-able, you cannot speak the unspeakable… and that’s no leadership at all.

Correction!  Without fierceness, I cannot do the not do-able.  I cannot speak the unspeakable.

And my heart screeches to break free.  I’m a maverick for god’s sake!  I always have been… yet there are times when I truss myself up for fear of not being acceptable, of being ‘too much’.  And so might you.

In leadership, being ‘too much’ is exactly what’s required sometimes.  What would the human race have missed through the absence of Galileo, Einstein, Edith Sitwell and Rosa Parks.  And if you don’t know who those women were, go look them up.  They also carried fierceness in their breasts… as do you and I.

At other times in leadership, being ‘too much’ could be inappropriate and destuctive… but you and I betray ourselves if we use that  fear to gag and disempower our self.  There is a truth in it so far as anything can be used for good or evil… but it’s not the truth.

Sometimes, I get told it is the truth, that I am ‘too much’, by people who don’t want to hear my challenges.  No surprise… because I’m not here to be quiet.  I’m not here to let you get away with the small version of you with which you can fool yourself.  Just as I’m not willing to accept my own self-deception.

To pay you the respect you deserve, I first have to do that for myself!

So,  if you don’t want to work deeply and at a pace, don’t work with me.  Find a different kind of facilitator because…

I’m fierce!

Both in the gentleness of support and love in which I’ll hold you and in my unwillingness to collude with your small self… my unwillingness to collude with the internal gremlins which trick you, the trances into which you fall asleep and the stories you weave to keep yourself there.  All of which is but a loving echo of my unwillingness to collude with my own.

Tears are flowing through my eyes now as I type BE FIERCE!… I’m passionate for you to be a fierce leader for yourself and others!  To be that kind of a leader in a world needing you and I to step up, speak out and take action.

Three essential steps…

1.   Absolutely take on board that you have the potential to do harm as well as good with fierce leadership.

2.   Sharpen the senses and skills of your discernment so as to be able to distinguish the quality of your action for good rather than harm.

3.   Regularly sit in that ‘dynamo of silence‘ I wrote of in my last ezine.  That dynamo of silence which fuels and inspires your discernment and your leadership.

Then, go be a fierce leader.  Go do fierce leadership.  And embody it boisterously or gently… however  you choose!